anticipation

ok seriously, in about 24 -25 hours, I will be with Kev at the game. Why am I like a little school girl? I don't expect some big epiphany to take place and for him to want us to be more than friends again....do I secretly want that? I'd be lying if I said no. Seriously though. Would I be ok if it didn't happen? yeah. I have to be ok with it. Good things come to those who wait. I don't want to jump into something serious with him again....IF anything were to transpire from this evening out...it is going to be the slowest moving thing ever!!!! I need Xanex!!!!! lol. My heart is in tachycardia a little bit and my palms are almost sweaty. ok that might be a slight exaggeration...but seriously, my tummy is definitely flip flopping around!!! I need to chill the F out!
ok that is all for now.
Ciao!