Oy Vey!

So the pressure is on. Seriously. Some crazy things have gone down this past week. Not that I am surprised....c'mon it's me we're referring to! lol
So my boss, my mentor, a second mother etc, suffered a heart attack and went through some crazy procedures. Glad to report she is doing well. Thank god for that! I still have far too much to learn from her. I am not sure when she is returning to work, but I hope and pray she takes all the time in the world. Not only does she deserve it, but I want her to be well and live a long time. She has a daughter and grandson who adore her, and some wonderful friends who love her dearly.

So then a co-worker loses his dad...very sad, and then this morning, I was stuck in the regular stop and go traffic on 93 N, when I sneeze the BIGGEST sneeze in America and rear end the guy in front of me. He then hits the lady in front of him...oy vey! Seriously!!!!!! WTF!? Oh well, how's the premium on my car insurance doing? The important thing is that I am ok, and my car has very minimal damage.

Is it Friday yet? Seriously. I need to relax on the beach.....

Craziness

Things have been a bit crazy for the past few days! Boss is sick and in the hospital, work is borderline chaotic, and I am so F'n tired I could scream! It is painful how tired I am. The weekend was fun. Part party party. Actually from Wednesday until Sunday was one big party. Maybe that is why I can't keep my eyes open?! Might have something to do with it. I heart Kevin. Seriously. He is the best. I bought a dress for the wedding we are going to yesterday and brought it over to show him last night. He made me feel like the most beautiful girl ever! He kept telling me that everyone was going to be jealous of him and his beautiful girlfriend. He is the sweetest. I was floating. So anyways. Now I need to find some nice shoes with a low heel. I don't want to tower over him.

The week ahead is going to be a bit nutso. but I know I will manage. Mum left for GA a couple hours ago, and I am insanely jealous. Miss my sister and nephew and Bro-in-law. But I will get there soon enough.

I am exuding insane amounts of confidence today. Mostly from Kevin comments last night and it was so sweet waking up next to him this morning!
Sigh
Seriously, I couldn't be happier!
xo

fun in the sun!

So what a fantastic weekend! Friday night I spent the evening with Kevin. Had some drinks watched some movies and well...the rest is to be left to the imagination! ;) Made breakfast and went home to lay out in the backyard and watch Allie! We had a great time! Didn't do much Saturday night, just chilled at home with my pseudo fam. Went to bed at about 11pm. Got up helped K plant some trees and got ready to go to the beach with Kevin. We had a great time. Lots of laughs. We are both so relaxed and so alike. We really do have one of the greatest friendships/relationships. We both agree on a lot of the same things which makes it easy for us to be together.
I am so happy. I look like a lobster, but I am happy as a clam.

Good day....good day.

Pay day. With my increase...nice! Pay some billz-yucky. Work my lil tush off. Kristen has named me the Chipper Shipper. Cute! Seriously, I want a T-shirt. SO I am a busy little beaver. Happy as a clam. yada yada yada. I am thinking about Kev and how happy I am since Tuesday. And then my phone vibrates in my pocket. Text message from Kev. I get goose bumps, and my heart skips 2 beats! So I have a date with my love tomorrow night! So excited. Can't wait.

So I am going to look SUPER cute tomorrow!!!

ok, I am going to have a drink with some co-workers.

:)

Floating on cloud nine!

Seriously, I am so flippin happy today!!!! Ok so the Sox won, Kev and I had a BLAST!!!! we enjoy each others company so much and we get along so well...it would have been hard not to have a great time! So, after the game we go out for a few more beverages and chat a bit. Long story short, we are back together and things are going to go VERY slowly at both of our request. Neither one of us wants to rush right back into anything and that is so cool because I want to go back to school and get my crap together. Who knows how long that will take?! lol

So I get up this morning, a little groggy from the 13 beers I had. Well not 13 but it felt like 13. I get in the shower, come out of the bathroom and the damn bird is on the floor right outside the bathroom. Scared the shit out of me! then she attacks my toes. I think the whole neighborhood heard me scream. Hurt like hell. so I put her back on her cage and proceed to get ready for work. I am wrapping up my arm and talking to mum on the phone and I don't notice that the stupid bird has made her way into the room. All of a sudden she bites my toe again, and the little f-er bites the same one!!!!! so now it is throbbing! Then I drop the roll of tape and it rolls under the bureau into the land of dust and the unknown. so silly me still on the phone, put my arm under the bureau and am trying to find the tape. I can't reach it. I go to pull my arm out and I have managed to get stuck. And the bird is still on the prowl and is coming right at me!! Meanwhile mum is laughing her ass off. I finally get my arm free put the bird on her cage again, and grab the broom and successfully retrieve the tape. I grab my stuff to go and the bird is again running after me trying to amputate my chubby little toe. So I chase after her to lock her in the cage and she darts under mums bed. I stop and tell myself I am not going to fight with the bird and I leave. Seriously what a morning.
But then I remember how lucky I am and how happy I am to have Kev back! I am glowing!I haven't been this happy in over a month.

But seriously....not even an evil parrot can ruin my high!

:)

Frolicking! :)

Seriously I am a complete and total jackass!!!! I am running...not I am frolicking around work like a complete FOOL! I am actually WORKING! This is unheard of! But seriously, I am giddy and silly. And I look cute. I only know that because Kristen told me so! Thanks Kristen! love ya doll!

I heart today!

xo

anticipation

ok seriously, in about 24 -25 hours, I will be with Kev at the game. Why am I like a little school girl? I don't expect some big epiphany to take place and for him to want us to be more than friends again....do I secretly want that? I'd be lying if I said no. Seriously though. Would I be ok if it didn't happen? yeah. I have to be ok with it. Good things come to those who wait. I don't want to jump into something serious with him again....IF anything were to transpire from this evening out...it is going to be the slowest moving thing ever!!!! I need Xanex!!!!! lol. My heart is in tachycardia a little bit and my palms are almost sweaty. ok that might be a slight exaggeration...but seriously, my tummy is definitely flip flopping around!!! I need to chill the F out!
ok that is all for now.
Ciao!

*sigh*

What a weekend. Friday night Jasson Heather and I drank 95% of a bottle of Ketel One vodka a third of a bottle of Jager, and got up to unpack their new apartment on Saturday. Well Heather, her sister and I unpacked.....So I went home Saturday late afternoon to sleep. I passed out on the couch with Frankie Obie and Sophie. Then woke up did some laundry at 7 pm. Decided to go to sleep at 9...only I couldn't fall asleep. Thank god for Trazadone. I was in la la land at 9:30! Woke up late Sunday! crap! Sophie shit all over the kitchen floor and I had to leave an hour ago to get to Laura's baby shower!!!!! AAAAAHHHHHH! But who's better than me? I was only a half hour late!!!! I rock. I ate like a pig, caught up with old friends and had a fantastic time. Then I went to visit Mum. And I hit a wall. I was so tired. Must have been the baklava (did I spell that right) So sweet, so heavy, SO fattening!!!!! :) So I am getting back on my jogging schedule today!!! NO excuses!
I am looking forward to the Red Sox game tomorrow. I am going with Kev. I am going to play it cool. I will be cool. I swear! Kev is a recent ex whom I care for a great deal.....A girl can dream right?
I am not sure if his sister is giving me false hope, but according to her, I don't know. I can't think about it. I am not giving up on him completely though. Not yet. Am I crazy? maybe. I am a hopeless romantic, I know that to be true. My heart is definitely on my sleeve. I believe in fairy tales for crissakes!!!!! lol. I am hopeful. If it isn't Kev then it will be someone. Sometime. hopefully before I am 40. but 40 is the new 30...right?
Ok I should get to work....
toodles!

Everything's coming up Jessica

Seriously.....
I went to dunkies this morning to have a ceremonial hang over coconut iced coffee and sausage egg and cheese on a croissant. Total was $4.97. I hand the non English speaking girl a $20. and she gives me $21.03 back!!!! Woo-hoo! Free breakfast AND I made a buck! so if that is any indication as to how my day is going to be.....I am wicked psyched. that's right I said wicked and psyched in the same sentence!!!! lol
So, I get a call from mom dukes asking me if I want tickets to the Sox game Tuesday night....Does a bear shit in the woods? Hell yeah! So I am super psyched! Again with the psyched, I know! LMAO! I am cracking myself up. *sigh* So now all I have to do now is play the numbers or something and maybe I will hit it big! I might be setting my sights a bit high, but a girl can dream can't she?
So if anything else really great happens I will keep you posted, for sure! Since when do I talk like a California babe?!

ta ta for now!
:}

I love music, sweet sweet music. and unloving....a 2 for!

Hooray! I have tunes! So excited.
But seriously on to other matters. This is one of the heart. I was thinking to myself yesterday....I said "self, why is it when you fall in love with someone, it is a gradual process?" You meet someone, you send some time with them, get to know them. Like turns to lust and then forget it you jump right into the love boat. So you love this person so deeply and passionately and share so many precious moments together. Then shit goes down and for whatever reason, a heart gets broken. Now I have done some breaking in my time, but I have been on the receiving end more times than I like to remember... So most times you are given a damn good reason. Found someone else, someone cheats, lies, etc. But on those very rare occasions they break it off with no real reason. This has happened twice to me. I did nothing wrong and things are going fantastically, and then one day BAM! He just doesn't feel the same anymore. How can one person say this to someone they supposedly loved and cared for so much? I think that there should be an Unloving period. Not as long as the time leading up to the loving, but enough time for the broken hearted to unlove the breaker of their heart. I think it is only fair. I don't know I could be talking out of my ass, but I want the person that loves me next to unlove me when and if he decides to tear my heart out of my chest and beat it to a pulp.

Good day!
;)

Quiet

ok so day three without the radio on my trek to work (sometimes a 2 hour ordeal) I thought by now I would be beside myself. Surprisingly, I am not. I made it home last night with no entertainment/music etc....not so bad. Seriously. I have been using the MP3 player in one ear sometimes, and lets be honest it just isn't the same as my stereo system in Etta the Jetta. But I have to be completely honest, being alone with my crazy thoughts isn't as scary as I thought it was going to be. I actually like myself!! lol and I am that much more in touch with myself. Now if they can't fix my radio today, by Friday I might be singing a different tune altogether. with no background music. I may have a few less hairs on my head. So cross your fingers people....Jess seriously needs music in her car.....

:-)

First Blog

So I decided to join the blogging community. I am a late bloomer and don't have much to offer, but this is going to be my online journal. So you can tune in to mi vida loca and laugh and cry along with me....ought to be fun. I am looking forward to sharing some random thoughts and my life happenings.

So today June 6, 2007, I am still at wok at 6:50 pm. I was supposed to drop Etta the Jetta off at the dealership so that they can fix my radio. I have been driving to work all week with no radio. How's my 2 hour commute into work going?! lol I unfortunately am stuck here and won't be able to drop it off until tomorrow. no biggie. I can survive.
I would talk on the phone the whole time, but I have a sinus/allergy thing going on and sound like a man/Fran Drescher....not a great combination.

I have my first fan. Lindsay. the Jew. slacker pot smoker I work with. He needs to eat a few cheesburgers. I don't care if he is a vegetarian. He actually quit smoking pot, apparently, the jury is still out on that. I have a hard time believing it. But if he did then good for him. He looks goddamn anorexic. But seriously Lindsay nothing but love for you!!! :)

So as I sit in this sweatshop, I am pondering so many things. Moving home to mum's house, finding a new job and going back to school. I can't just do one thing at a time. I decide to shake it all up at once. Will I ever learn. I don't have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out of, but hey what the hell you only live once. I do want to go back to school. I really really do. I can't work at Atlantis Components for the rest of my life. That would be torture! So I have to get my ass financially stable once and for all! I am almost f'n 30!!!!!!

Well now that my mind has thrown up, I am calling it a day and am heading out.