Wedding planning update and "plugs"

So Kevin and I are making strides with booking everything. The ceremony and reception site are booked. I ordered the save the dates through a great website, www.weddingpaperdivas.com, they have everything!!!! So fabulous! Kevin and my Mum went and met with the DJ and we have EJ the DJ!!!! The photographer is a good friend of Kevin's John Caplice www.johncapliceweddings.com. No wedding cake, we are having cupcakes!!! We will get these and our invitations from Party Favors in Brookline-so wonderful! I have my wedding gown, my shoes. The menu is picked out, and the only other big thing to do is decide on flowers. You would think this would be easy. I love flowers. My sister was a florist and my best friend still is. I just can't make up my mind. I have so many ideas, and I am driving myself crazy over this.....I am thinking roses, but they are so typical, but they are timeless. I also live a more organic feel, I have seen a lot of bouquets with lotus pods....different. I love Bamboo for centerpieces, but seriously how do I work that into my bouquet????? Back to the hundreds of web sites, and bridal mags I guess....

to the new year and the new improved me!

so typically with the new year come the resolutions that we never keep....so i have decided that i am not making resolutions. instead i am setting goals to better myself in general. some little things, some more extravagant.....

i have already quit smoking. so some of my other goals are: utilize the cruise control in etta the jetta...i drive too fast. i am well aware of it, so when i am on the highway, i am going to use my cruise control. i am going to keep it set at 65 mph. i usually drive between 70-80 mph....

i want to be more punctual. i am almost always late. i have to work on that...

also i am going to work at improving my posture, and i want to be more graceful. not that i am a bull in a china closet, but my grandmother wanted my parents to send me to charm/finishing school when i was younger, and i really wish that they had. i want to look into charm school. i want to be polished. i want to be more lady-like-think jackie o or audrey hepburn.

so from now on this is my mantra...... humility, grace, forgiveness, peacefulness, gratefulness...
I feel refreshed.I feel better already...

someday i will figure out what i want to be when i grow up...seriously. let me just get through these things first. start small and work my way up.

Here it goes!!!!

wedding.....crap

ok, so the place is booked, we know what we're doing for invitations, and cupcakes, and we have the cake topper and the toasting flutes....now what?! oh yeah a dress. Seriously, when do I go? Flowers.....grrr...so hard. old, new, borrowed, blue....eh. I just want to marry the man I love. No favors. I hate favors. I hate flowers. Can I wear jeans?! lol
Seriously.....think about it....jeans! ha ha ha ha ha!!! Oh I am going to be committed!

wedding blurb

" I Do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

On 6/13/08
He asked.
I said yes.
Seriously!!!!

Sept. 26, 2009
date of the nuptials.
very exciting!!!!
Popponesset Inn, New Seabury, MA.

Yeah!!!!

Dad.....

Ok so most of my dear friends know that my relationship with my dad wasn't a fairytale daddy's little girl type of thing....
But since his passing, I do know this. I had 3 days with my dad, and we didn't like hug, or cry or anything, but for the first time in my life the rough tough guy that I had known all my life, was a little scared, and peaceful. I also know that even though those 3 days didn't make up for the times we were at each other's throats for the better part of my existence, I think we had a kind of unspoken respect and admiration for each other. I wish I didn't shut him out as often as I did. There are a lot of father/daughter relationships that are similar to the one we had, and I just only hope that the daughters out there, realize before it is too late, how much their dad's love them, and can put aside their pride and allow themselves to feel the love that every father has for their children. I denied myself the opportunity, and it is something that I have to come to terms with now. I always wanted to make him proud of me, and I think I tried so hard that I resented him for not making a huge deal out of my accomplishments. I didn't win the Nobel Peace Prize or anything, but still, I wish I wasn't so hard on him and on myself. He was a great man, and I wish I had told him that more often.

Amy-zing and the big "K"

Ok so prior to my being fired from the day spa which will not be named... My delightful friend Amy E offered to practice some waxing on my nether regions.... Long story short, she tried to wax a "K" on my who-ha....god love her she tried....and it looked more like an "X", but it was a laugh shared by us and unfortunately, I haven't laughed with her since, as I was shortly after that terminated, (nothing to do with the waxing) and I found out that she had given her notice and has left the spa which will not be named. She is on to bigger and better things, as am I....(hopefully soon)...and I am happy to report that the hair is slowly growing back, and I laugh each day when I remember what was a great day with a great person and friend....good times!